I’m sure you all are sick of me talking about college non-stop. For that, I apologize. I cannot help but gush on and on about it. It is a big step in my life and my recovery. I will be moving in next Wednesday. It just doesn’t seem real. I don’t know when that moment of “bam you’re in college” is going to happen. Maybe it’ll be at 2 a.m. the night before move-in, when I say good-bye to my mom, or maybe it’ll never happen. I have no idea.
One thing that I have been positively (as well as negatively) anticipating is is the food aspect that goes along with college. Having a background with an eating disorder doesn’t necessarily make it easy to transition from home to a place one has never been before. I have heard horror stories of eating disorders making college a disaster, but I have also heard numerous stories of how girls and guys alike have fought their ED through college and were successful.
I strive to be that girl who doesn’t let my eating disorder take away the joy of college.
I am not trying to be ignorant in any way. I know there are going to be obstacles among obstacles of things I need to overcome. Dining halls, impromptu food runs with friends, not as many options… Needless to say, there are going to be some challenges in my future.
I’m a planner. I like to plan everything. My type-A, perfectionist personality has gifted (cursed? you decide) me with the want and need to make everything make sense and be planned accordingly. While I am aware that not everything is going to be smooth-sailing, I have a game-plan of how I am going to keep pursuing recovery while I fill my brain with a plethora of knowledge.
At the dining hall, I plan to have most of my lunches and dinners there. Eating out is a huge fear of mine. However, throughout this summer, I have tried consistently going out to eat and I am much more comfortable than where I was.
The dining hall is going to be like my new dining room. I want to associate the hall as a place where I nourish my body so my mind can flourish.
I am so thankful that the kitchen services uses locally grown produce and take pride in the food they make. I’ve eaten there before and it is not bad for cafeteria food. It’s actually pretty good.
They post the menu the week before. My strategy is to look at the menu and plan in advance what I am going to get. That way, I can comfortably and easily go in and get a plate of food that has the nutrients I need.
In my dorm I will be having a microwave along with a mini-fridge. I bought this fridge specifically because it has a freezer. That way I can keep my Dairy Queen blizzards in stock as well as other frozen goods.
I’m bringing a lot of my staples- nut butters, tuna, popcorn, and all of that yummy stuff. I plan to get some refrigerated items once I get there. I’m going to be stocking up on snacks that I can either have at my dorm or on the go. I need to constantly remind myself that snacks are important.
I was able to schedule my classes so that I can have meals at my regular time. That brings a big relief to me. After adjusting to everything else at school, I would like to have a sense of normalcy when it comes to meals. I might not have that privilege in future semesters, but for now, I am thankful.
With the support of my family, my beautifully kind counselor, and God, I know I can succeed in college and be who I need to be. They give me strength.
- What food would you stock in your dorm room?
- Do you like Mediterranean food? The above meal is from Roti, a Mediterranean Chipotle-like place. So good!
- DQ Blizzards or Ben and Jerry’s?
- Any advice for me or others going into college?